Trust My Own True Mind

Lately, I have been thinking a lot about life changing experiences and how one thing can affect someones life greatly. This has happened to me lately and this past month I have been thinking about my life and have decided to make a change. In the beginning of this month I went to NYC and saw Spring Awakening on Broadway and it has affected me more than most people know. It is not just the story that has brought about this change but the things I found afterwards along with the story. I was greatly moved by Melchior and the amazingly talented Matt Doyle. In the play Melchior sees the world as he wants to see it and lives his life as he sees fit but in the end he is punished for it. However, he continues to strive through the bad until he finds his way to the light at the end. I want to live my life that way. I want to be able to see past the poor decisions and the things that I don't like about myself to find the light. This is finally the path that I see myself on and I am optimistic that what I am doing right now is leading me towards that path and helping me to reach the end of the tunnel.

I am also very inspired by the actor that I saw play Melchior, Matt Doyle. I was in awe of his performance and it helped me to try and change my life, to do what I wanted to do which is how he lives his life. I do not want to live to do only as directed or to conform to societies standards, I want to live how I want and make all of my own decisions without trying to please everyone at the same time.

These ideas have helped me to grow in ways that I never thought would be possible. I have been going through my life as a zombie, blocking out all emotion and never really thinking about how I am actually living. I let other peoples actions and emotions run my life. I have never been one to speak about my true feelings with anyone and not expressing myself the way I should, I believe, hurt me and hindered my growth as a person. In order to truly live my life, I need to experience and feel everything possible. I need to take every opportunity and go to the fullest and this is how I plan on living my life from this point on.