Tomorrow

So.. tomorrow I am going to see Spring Awakening for the 2nd and final time before it closes in one week (01/18). I am very excited to go see the show again and be able to experience it in a new way because it won't be my first time seeing it. I feel like I will be able to appreciate the little nuances and notice new details that I did not see the first time. I do not even care who plays what role really because I will love it either way. Although having Matt Doyle as Melchior would just be icing on the cake.

So I was also looking up information about the new Broadway show revival of "Hair" and found out that when it was done over the summer that Jonathan Groff played Claude. Jonathan Groff originated the role of Melchior in Spring Awakening and I was hoping that he would then do the Broadway debut. Unfourtunately he is not but it was really interesting seeing videos on Youtube of him playing Claude because that character is sooo different from anything in Spring Awakening. I am really excited to get tickets to see Hair because I have always been attracted to that time period. And I love the music.

On another note, I am leaving early saturday to go back to Syracuse to start the spring semester. I am pretty excited to go back to school it should be a very challenging but rewarding semester for me. I am sure that I will be stressed to the max for most of it but I will still try and find time to blog between studying and everything else.

So.... more on Spring Awakening to come after I see it tomorrow.

Trust My Own True Mind

Lately, I have been thinking a lot about life changing experiences and how one thing can affect someones life greatly. This has happened to me lately and this past month I have been thinking about my life and have decided to make a change. In the beginning of this month I went to NYC and saw Spring Awakening on Broadway and it has affected me more than most people know. It is not just the story that has brought about this change but the things I found afterwards along with the story. I was greatly moved by Melchior and the amazingly talented Matt Doyle. In the play Melchior sees the world as he wants to see it and lives his life as he sees fit but in the end he is punished for it. However, he continues to strive through the bad until he finds his way to the light at the end. I want to live my life that way. I want to be able to see past the poor decisions and the things that I don't like about myself to find the light. This is finally the path that I see myself on and I am optimistic that what I am doing right now is leading me towards that path and helping me to reach the end of the tunnel.

I am also very inspired by the actor that I saw play Melchior, Matt Doyle. I was in awe of his performance and it helped me to try and change my life, to do what I wanted to do which is how he lives his life. I do not want to live to do only as directed or to conform to societies standards, I want to live how I want and make all of my own decisions without trying to please everyone at the same time.

These ideas have helped me to grow in ways that I never thought would be possible. I have been going through my life as a zombie, blocking out all emotion and never really thinking about how I am actually living. I let other peoples actions and emotions run my life. I have never been one to speak about my true feelings with anyone and not expressing myself the way I should, I believe, hurt me and hindered my growth as a person. In order to truly live my life, I need to experience and feel everything possible. I need to take every opportunity and go to the fullest and this is how I plan on living my life from this point on.

Starting A Blog

So.... I decided to start a blog this year. I am really starting to get into writing down how I feel and what I am into at the moment and I thought this would be a good place for me to track what I am into at that moment. I will post about things that are deep and meaningful and bands or music that I am obsessed at that moment. I guess we will see what comes out of this new adventure. I am very excited to start blogging for real and maybe people will actuall read it which would be weird and cool at the same time haha.